Once Upon a Time in Anatolia (2011)

Through the night, three cars carry a small group of men around in the rural surroundings of the Anatolian town Keskin, in search of a buried body. The group involves police officers, a doctor, a prosecutor, two grave diggers, army forces, and two brothers, both homicide suspects. The darkness and the seemingly visual indistinctness of the barren landscape do not help, each spot looks the same.

Once Upon a Time in Anatolia is  an uncompromising film, seemingly possessed by some mysterious grandeur in its wintry, bleak and pitch black pessimism. We as an audience are brought along on this sleepless journey in what seems to be just as tiresome as the characters must have felt. We too feel the frustration of the expedition, with every search giving no results. This premise is a genius move from Ceylan, and he has said in interviews that he made the first half as tiresome as he could possibly manage, and if that resulted in people standing up and leaving the cinema, well, then was only a sign of artistic success.

“Never have I ever met someone as pessimistic as you, Doctor”, the Prosecutor says, hinting to the fact that the Doctor believes the young woman the Prosecutor mentioned earlier on may have committed suicide.

The whole film is drenched in this bleak, pessimistic nature, and we come to learn that the main characters – through their view on topics such as family, spouses, ex-wives, death, suicide, hierarchy, bureaucracy, ethics, and their jobs – are all rotten apples with their own set of secrets and demons, no matter their working title. We more or less come to learn that everything and everyone is a cover-up.

In one encapsulating scene of the film theme we see a police officer picking the fruits of an apple tree, and clumsy as he is, he drops a few of them on the ground. What makes this scene so great is what follows. The camera chooses to leave the Prosecutor and the Chief of police in the middle of a debate, and following an apple, rolling down the steps and into a river. From there it floats all the way down until it stops, resting along with three rotten apples, all having followed the same route before… No matter if you’re a cop or a suspected murderer. We’re all bad apples, and we tend to land far from the tree.

I don’t know if this is a good word to describe this film, but the word “literate” comes to mind. In many ways Ceylan’s film is like a good novel, with deep and carefully drawn out characters and setting, and with a complex story, where the truth seem to be buried under ground as well, hidden in the dark, indistinct landscapes. Ceylan effectively combines the literate quality of the script with some masterful cinematography, mostly done with natural lighting (the light from the cars). The visuals give the film something of an ethereal quality, which works extremely well for the journey aspect of the narrative. Basically, this is one of those films that’s so moody we tend to call them experiences rather than movies. I can’t recall having seen anything like this before.

In the end you come out of the film feeling fatigued, but also that your intelligence and sharp senses have been challenged. You know that a meaningful, mysterious slice of life just has been presented to you, but  you’ll have to figure out what it all means on your own.

Back to Bonfire 

5/23/2016

Angels and Airwaves album “We Don’t Need to Whisper” turned 10 years old today. I can’t explain how influential that album and really, year (2006) shaped my life

Bible reading update time. Today was a big day. I started the book of Isaiah. There is definitely something peculiar about it. The tone is completely separated from any other book I’ve read thus far. I’m excited to still be going strong, though. By the end of this year I can proudly say I read my entire bible.

After 48 hours at the Fire Department, it feels great to be home. Liam and I did some drawing this morning and little Luca just started crawling forward.

We had a bonfire tonight with great friends. It’s funny how such simple acts could be so fulfilling. I think sometimes we assume events need to be extravagant to be worthwhile. I’ve learned the opposite is usually true.

Tomorrow is another day at home chilling with the little guys and a couple of haircuts to close out the day.

Rest in Pixels

I’m going to insist you watch the video below, then I will humbly post  my 2-year-old theory on the future of facebook and digital immortality.

I can’t tell you guys how much negative feedback I received after posting my facebook theory. The video below in no way validates my prediction. But makes me feel a little less crazy.

I would love to hear other people’s feedback on this subject. Digital Immortality and digital footprints. The truth is the subject of a digital footprint is new. No one really knows hot to handle such a thing. Thats why everyone’s opinion is unique and worth listening to.

Day 2

5/22/2016

I was talking with my good buddy Jeremy today. He reminded me of something important. We all start somewhere. If you try a new diet, there must be a start day. If you want to begin a new habit or shoot for a goal, you need a “first” day.I lose track of this all time. Sometimes I get so wrapped up in things.

My department is starting rookie school again on Monday and I have been here the past two days. Because of my  coincidental presence,  I have seen some preparation for the new class, etc.  Talking with Jeremy, combined with seeing all this has reminded me of the times I was trying desperately to get onto a Fire Department. It made me extremely thankful to have a job and actually enjoy it and also allowed some recollections of my first couple weeks here. Funny how we forget things so easily sometimes.

After a busy day 2, I am looking forward to tomorrow AM so I could go home and spend time with Liam and Luca. Maybe a bonfire tomorrow night? Unsure.

Liam and Lindsey are continuing to get better and the fast road to a full recovery. Thumbs up.

On a side note for those asking. I’m not sure if I will continue these daily updates. I just wanted to try something new and somehow this idea popped in my head. So if sometime soon 24 hours go by and you don’t see one, don’t be worried. Most likely I’m still alive! Had the time I feel I am rambling, the other half I’m not talking about anything of interest. At least that’s how it feels. But we will see.

Here’s to a quiet night!

Continued Facebook Creepiness

If you are a facebook user, that’s fine. I’m not for many reasons. Personally, I have always felt their need for control and sense of creepiness a little too overpowering. I have also always felt that facebook is constantly trying to figure out ways to control the narrative and create a controlled environment. Anyways, news that broke yesterday continues to favor my theory:

Facebook’s Trending news section includes topics that aren’t actually trending on Facebook, according to a statement from the company today.

The admission came after The Guardian published a trove of documents, including a copy of Facebook’s “Trending Review Guidelines” used to train workers—known internally as “news curators”—who run the platform’s trending section. As Gizmodo previously reported, Facebook’s trending section is run largely like a newsroom and curators can “inject” and “blacklist” topics.

Why is this such a big deal to me? Simple. Facebook prides itself being an innocent in between of connecting people yet is personally curating what you see. Never a good thing. Especially when they are lying to you about actually doing it.

It’s this sort of constant creepiness that will forever keep me away from them.

Day 1 Complete

5/21/2016

So day 1 at the FD in the books. Couple calls, nothing too serious. On the sick front, alas good news! Lindsey and Liam are feeling a bunch better. Luca still is A-OK. Happy times.

I got a good game of chess in today. I haven’t played in so long, so it was nice flexing those muscles again. I lost, but winning is everything right?

Something crazy did happen today, though. For whatever reason I was washing dishes and must have rubbed my eye at some point. I kid you not, I couldn’t fully open that eye for at least 2 hours. Towards the end there it was kind of scary but a paramedic assured me it would slowly get better and sure enough, he was right.

I was able to watch a little of the Libertarian Debate today. It was insightful and John McAfee really surprised me. I think Gary Johnson is the likely candidate, but all 3 were strong.

Also and probably of utmost importance to readers here, I started my next long-form opinion article. It’s a thought I have been pondering for a very long time and always knew I wanted to write about. But, now seems appropriate. Of course, it will most likely take months to be finished because well, you know me. But it was exciting to get started.

 

Official Sick Day

5/20/2016

Thankfully Lindsey was feeling better and she was able to go to work today. We made an appointment for Liam at 10:45 because he was still a little under the weather….. The Dr said Liam has an ear infection. This would explain his pain from the night before. Luca still is doing fine.

Since it was indeed an official sick day, being lazy and watching movies was top priority. (I say being lazy and all but I still achieved completion of the 7 minute workout). The movie list consisted of: Alvin and the chipmunks, how to train your dragon 2, and of course The Polar Express.

As I mentioned a few weeks ago, I am doing a bible project. Read the entire bible in 1 year. Today I read the book of Jonah. The ending shocked me. No spoilers here, but the more I read this book the more different it is compared to my expectations.

Lindsey came home on her lunch break and made some spaghetti. We ate it for dinner. Lindsey actually had squash spaghetti. She is doing really well in her diet. I could take a few lessons from her.

Well, tomorrow starts 48 hours at the fire department. Fun times.

Back to Work 

5/19/2016

Up at 4am. Shower, shave and car ride. I switched breakfast up today and got some chicfila oatmeal. Not bad at all. Got to work and all was the same. They had a few fires while I was gone. Wish I was there for them.

Unfortunate news out of Egypt today. Supposed terrorist attack. Really sad and unfortunate. We watched it on the news for the majority of the morning.

I read a little more of my Ron Paul book. While it is still way over my head, I’m starting to understand the broad strokes of his theories. For some reason, they make too much sense for the American public. He is still widely known as an extremist although his policies amazingly resemble the founding fathers. Odd.

Had a good phone conversations with my brother, Mike and Dad today . We talked a little of Mike’s plans of visiting. Looking forward to seeing him. My Dad told me he is moving forward with his condo. He sounded happy and excited. Great news!

Lindsey and Liam are not feeling well at all. All of this sort of came on suddenly. Lindsey went to the Dr’s today and was prescribed some medicine. If Liam isn’t feeling better tomorrow I will bring him also. I wish I was home to help. Hopefully I could be of more help tomorrow when I get off of my shift.

Summer Vacation

5/18/2016

Today started out pretty slowly. Woke up around 6:30, 7-minute workout, 1 egg because well, we only had 1 egg left. Then…..shower.

Today also commenced Liam’s summer vacation. While this was different than our usual routine, things went pretty smoothly. I’m going to try to implement some new activities for Liam this summer. More of outdoorsy stuff mixed in with reading more books and drawing. You know artsy stuff. More stuff than just watching TV shows on Netflix all day.

Luca slept in the latest (around 8:30) and let’s just say… he needed a bath and diaper change. So there was that.

Fast forward a little bit. Lindsey got off work at 1 and we discussed even further about our hardwood floor plans. It seems I was a little confused by the laminate talks. But maybe we’ll find something worthwhile maybe not. To Be Continued…

Today was also a day for the hair salon. I was thankful to have a full book. One thing that is always true: cutting hair never gets old to me. Sometimes it’s the only thing I do that makes sense. I have been cutting hair for close to 14 years now. Crazy when I think about it.

Church later on was good. Bro. Dan preached on “Continuing on.” A message I needed to hear for many reasons.

After a week hiatus, tomorrow marks the return to the Fire Department. Looking forward to getting back and seeing everyone.

Later.

Grizzly Man (2005)

Let me state this immediately, Grizzly Man is not for the faint of heart or thinking. It raises more questions than it answers, and most importantly; the ultimate demise of Timothy Treadwell is a tragic result of serious unfortunate events. All that said, Grizzly Man is one of best documentaries I have seen. No matter how disturbing the experience may be.

As Werner Herzog rightly states towards the ending of this masterful documentary, it is not the nature of the bears into which the viewer is gaining an insight, but rather the nature of humanity. By focusing on ‘grizzly man’ Timothy Treadwell, Herzog is able to pose questions of remarkable profundity in a simple and unassuming way. Was Treadwell right to abandon human society in search of meaning and contentment with his life? Was his apparent clarity a facade? What is so wonderful is that Herzog is satisfied with asking the questions and leaving them unanswered, inviting the viewer to engage themselves into the debate. 

As with all truly great documentaries, Herzog remains unobtrusive, and his opinions on his subject are never revealed. Although he admits a level of respect and admiration for the footage which Treadwell shoots, Herzog’s opinions on his lifestyle are left unsaid. In fact, the renowned director is incredibly sensitive in his handling of the subject, showing respect and compassion to both the eponymous bear-lover and his friends and family. Herzog’s narration is the highlight of this documentary, being seemingly peripheral to the action but heavily influencing the viewer’s perception of it.

Although ‘Grizzly Man’ is very much a character study of a paranoid yet inspired, unhinged yet seemingly content man, the nature footage is a key feature of the film. Some of the close-up footage of the bears is unlike anything I have seen before, with the Alaskan wilderness providing a stunning back-drop. The filmmakers have also been very canny in their editing of the footage, with it showing a seeming progression into madness from Treadwell – the loose ends of film after what he would have intended to be used being particularly insightful.

As both a nature documentary and as an example of introspective philosophy in film, ‘Grizzly Man’ is triumphant. Although the Grizzly Man’s footage alone would make for fascinating viewing, Herzog uses Timothy Treadwell’s quest as a springboard for questions that relate to everyone. Should we be scared by Treadwell’s lack of fear or should we respect it? Should we envy his apparent clarity, his having discovered meaning in life, or should be feel disconcerted by his paranoia and distrust for the human world? Herzog poses these questions without the grandeur that they may usually hold, and his simple yet poignant narration unobtrusively elevates this documentary to a status it would otherwise not have.